Today I wanted to talk about something different, sort of. I play guitar mostly but all sorts of instruments and love many genres of music. What hits me the most is playing and singing a song that the meaning (or how I view it) is very personal to me. So I wanted to show you guys how I do that in my head by writing it out so maybe some of you can see how to do this and find some solace in it. This song is called

"Ive got a dark alley and a bad idea you should shut your mouth" by Fall Out Boy.

"The joke is something awful just like kisses on the neck between 'Just friends'
 We are the kids that feel like dead ends"
(To me those kisses on the neck could feel so right if the other person would just see you and love you like you love them. Could be literal or viewed as liking (or loving) someone who doesnt feel the same.)

"I want to be known for my hits not just my misses. I took a shot and didn't even come close. At trust and love and hope. And the kids are just poets who didn't make it and never had it at all."
(These lines are personal to me. Lately I have been known for my dating failures really I don't need hits. Just hit. The kids to me are us. People like many of us who struggle with dating, but more importantly a struggle with maybe just one person.)

"And the record won't stop skipping."
 (Not being able to get past that one person)
 "And the lies just won't stop slipping"
 (Like to yourself and others that they are really just a friend and mean nothing more to you)
"And besides my reputations on the line. We can fake it for the airwaves. We can smile baby half dead. Comparing myself to everyone around me" (Knowing that everyone is watching but you know you are slick and can make sure nobody knows how you feel so they dont know the misses)                                               

"Please put the doctor on the phone cause I'm not making any sense"
 (The doctor is a friend we all have that encourages you and shows understanding to your feelings)
 "Blame everyone but me for this mess"
 (Always saying things like "Well if she didn't have a boyfriend" when really it never mattered in the first place)
 "And my back is breaking from this heavy heart and we never seemed so far"
 (Knowing that doing this to yourself just isn't that healthy but you can't fight your feelings forever no matter how far off it seems)

"I'm hopelessly hopeful and your just hopeful enough but we never had it at all."
 (Meaning that I am just hopelessly caught up in one person and the person just makes you feel like you might have a chance but there really wasn't ever one at all.)

"And the record won't stop skipping."
 (Not being able to get past that one person)
 "And the lies just won't stop slipping"
 (Like to yourself and others that they are really just a friend and mean nothing more to you)
"And besides my reputations on the line. We can fake it for the airwaves. We can smile baby half dead. Comparing myself to everyone around me" (Knowing that everyone is watching but you know you are slick and can make sure nobody knows how you feel so they dont know the misses) 

So there is that song. Its one that is pretty personal to me. Sometimes it feels as if though I wrote it. That's how I break down songs and why some are just so important. 

If you were paying attention you noted how I used "I" a lot in those explanations. I noticed in a lot of my blog posts that it seems like I have the whole dating world in my hands and the fact is I don't. There is one person that just sits in my head and although this song doesn't fix it, its one that just makes me feel better knowing I'm not the only one. 

Rise Up and Be Bold

-Andrew "Hopelessly hopeful for too long but don't care" O'Connor